Saturday, October 16, 2010

This week...
I saw myself twice, once in the mirror and the next in a dream.
I asked for help, it was time to help me see the woman in the mirror and the child in the dream.
With Prayer and counseling the words lead me to and from Ephesians 5:26.. protected, healed, comforted, loved.
Intertwined with this life and once upon a time. I discovered that, in this peaceful transition, what I already knew.
I am not 'your' child anymore, no I am a Woman. With this, I am after a heart so pure, only my one true protector has it.
"Where were you when they told the news? Chances are you already knew."
This week someone stopped me in my tracks with a realization that for once I can say to myself this that for once I can actually hold and comfort that child. Through prayer of healing, this child is no longer, and it is blanketed by a secure comfort of a life now lived. A life of faith, of thanksgiving, of adoration, of love. Forgiven those with a wholeheartedness as I let go. Left behind are the burdens, and baggage dragged to the cross, with every emotion, every toy from a life of struggle. By the time it's up on that hill at the foot of the cross there are no handles left to hang on to, with hands achey and my back bent in strife. Down there.. where it will be laid forever, walk away, do not turn back to stare on the pile of mud, but rather think on the Forever Freedom.

4 comments:

Kmarie said...

Beautiful post.
Thank God for mentors and wise counsel- hey?
What an inspiring thought process.

just sayin' said...

healing~! it's a beautiful thing.

Grandma K said...

Thank you for continuing to share your journey. Thank you for being honest. Thank you for being willing to open your heart and allow healing to take place. In the healing there comes freedom, at least that has been my experience.
Thank you.

kimberley said...

beautiful, and has left me in a puddle of tears. hope-full tears.